I've been thinking today about being out of work -- again. Within the first few hours and days of being abruptly removed from the job you have toiled over for a certain number of years, you are in shock. It reactivates any PTSD from which you are already suffering, and I am suffering from a bit. One may even be tempted to despair, and for a few brief moments, I did.
Today I am having some thoughts about alternate ways to survive, some using ordinary skills I have never used before to generate income, and some using skills well honed by academic degrees and almost 20 years of dedication.
But, another thought has occurred to me (one that has pinged in my mind innumerable times), and that is that God sometimes has to give you a kick in the butt by allowing people and circumstances to occur that appear to be to your detriment in order to force you to go in another direction. This has happened to me a few times in my life, but this time Jesus really has forced me into a corner. He's been telling me for years to write, but I was too afraid to do so. I took menial jobs rather than write, and now that I have been relieved of another menial job, why not write? It's fear of one thing or another.
For those readers who don't believe in God or His ability to "speak" to someone, it's not that I hear an audible voice, but that events, prayer, people, voices in media, books, articles, posts, etc., are placed in my path for me to think about, mull over, and use for discernment of God's will. My will is a loose cannon; God's will is a guiding light.
Does anyone relate to my experience?
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